its been forever since I have written on my livejournal. i check it maybe once every two or three months but it seems as if everyone has abandoned it. that's ok. i need an outlet and i have blogger but i feel that is a front and I am not sure i can do it anymore. also, there is facebook but i hate hate hate facebook. the only reason i keep it around is for family members that dont live near us.
first, i am back in louisiana living with my grandparents and this makes me want to scream. i hate living here and i know they dont want me here but i have to keep in mind it is only for a little while. i am hoping to go apartment hunting sometime next week.
second, i feel torn and untrue to myself. i know i need to just be me but it is hard whenever you live your life under a microscope.
third, i really hope to keep up with this even if no one follows me i promise it will be ok...my own little heaven.